Carpe Diem

Död amazon
(av Hjalmar Gullberg)

Svärd som fäktar mot övermakten,
du skall brytas och sönderslås !
Starka trupper ha enligt T.T.
nått Thermopyle, Greklands lås
Fyrtioåriga Karin Boye
efterlyses från Alingsås.

Mycket mörk och med stora ögon;
klädd i resdräkt, när hon försvann.
Kanske söker hon bortom sekler,
dit en spårhund ej vägen fann,
frihetspasset där Spartas hjältar
valde döden till sista man.

Ej har Nike med segerkransen
krönt vid flöjtspel och harposlag
perserkonungen, jordens gissel.
Glömd förvittrar hans sarkofag.
Hyllningkören skall evigt handla
om Leonidas' nederlag.

För Thermopyle i vårt hjärta
måste några ge livet än.
Denna dag stiger ned till Hades,
följd av stolta hellenska män,
mycket mörk och med stora ögon
deras syster och döda vän.

Jag blir så jävla förbannad! Det här förbannade temat kommer ta livet av mig, jag svär. Eller så tar jag livet av. Men nej det får jag ju inte så klart. Fridas dumma tjat om infertilitet får ju inte ha någon som helst effekt på temahelvetet. Det är ju för jävla "orelevant". Jaha? Men jävla p-piller och fan vet vilken skit kan vi minsan klämma in. För "det är ju så många fler av oss som kommer att komma i kontakt med p-piller än infertilitet". I helvete heller! jag blir så jävla förbannad! Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Does annyone hawe a link to writerJ's Homecomming site?

Doesn't really belong here since the only connection to this community is Ross, but I didn't know any better place so...

Why the HELL can't I find anny deacent Green Street Hooligans fics?
I mean it's not like all the fics I find is just crap, 'cause I can't find any at all!
Now whys that? I thought slash writers would jump that movie, bot oh no not a single fic in sight. Well apart from those Elijah Wood ones but he's not really what wat we're after, is he?
*sighs* Maybe I'm just daft.

So I got home from Italy this morning. I swear that tripp was one of the best things I have ever done. 'll have to write it all to morrow.

The other day I suddenly realized that practically all the songs on Savage garden's "Savage garden" should have their own place on the Webgott soundtrack!

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

Does anyone know what the D in Lieb's name stands for?

So, I was at the hospital yesterday to see that welfare officer about the turner/baby thing. It felt good to be there and to talk to someone who knows more about it all than me. That makes their comfort easier to accept. It still hurt the rest of the day, of course, but I should have seen that coming. I think this is good for me, I mean my mum knows about as much about this as I do; and the rest of the family only what we have told them and so does my friends. But when I talked to my previous history teacher when he asked after I had done nothing on his lesson I had to explain what Turners syndrome was altogether, and it was the same with the school welfare officer. But Gunilla has worked with this since before I was born, and that's comforting.

When I was about ten years old I was diagnosed Turners syndrome, which was the explanation to me being so much shorter than my class mates and also why I had trouble with maths and other abstract subjects, had a little lousy ball-sense and why I have trouble making friends. The length problem was "easily" cured: I had to take growth hormones! One shot in the leg each night for ten years. Easy, yeah, sure. But on the brighter side of things ,I'm no longer so afraid of shots as I was before. The worse part came two months before my 16th birthday. The doctor had talked about plucking some of my eggs out for a year or so but I hadn't thought so much about it. Anyway as it was about to become reality, I went to the physician at the women's clinic the first day of the ninth grade autumn break. There the doctor throws in my face that I shouldn't count on ever have any kids of my own! I was to shocked to accept the thought at first. When I got back to school after the leave I told my friends about it and ever since they have been a great support. But it first a few weeks later, during a science lesson that i wept the first time. We had been working on different projects and we had cloning. On top of that I had the good and bad about it. As I sat there I noticed a sentence in my papers I hadn't rely seen before: Cloning could be solution to childless couple! Then I wept a bit. But I calmed down quickly and didn't weep again 'till my birthday, 29th December, tree days after the tsunami on top of everything. I didn't loose anyone, but dad's cousin was down there with a couple of friends. But I don't think that was what triggered it. Two weeks before I finished seventh grade my uncle had his third child, and it's always a bit hard to bee with him. So this birthday My uncle was there with his family, my grand parents were there, my aunts were there with their families and my grandmothers had been talking baby memories with my aunt. Later that night me and Hanna, my cousin was sitting in the hallway, playing with the baby when mu mum came and took him, claiming it was her time to play with her nephew. I protested lamely at her back and at that moment my brother, who had been in a hell of a mod the whole day, passed by said something about 'cause you won't have any biological babies. After a while a sat down at the dining table where the adults were sitting talking about the tsunami. Then my heart broke. Then when my mum looked at my asked if I was okay I started crying, much. When she managed get out of me what was wrong her and dad took up to their bedroom to let me cry and talk to me. Meanwhile my aunt asked Hanna if she knew what happened and she told them about my brother. That was the first time I really cried over it, after that I have cried mostly sporadically, when it has felt extra hard and my friends has always been there to listen and comfort, I don't know if I would have made it through some periods without them. I also cried in relief the night I red the article that blamed some of my other problems, ex my trouble making friends, on the Turner as well.